uhm,,nagbadminton kami ni aika.

pagod...
nag-badminton kami ni aika. its slightly magastos but its masaya naman. i'm thinking..what if i-develop ko ang aking badminton skills para at least naman i have a sport diba. kesa naman sa tatanungin ka tapos sagot mo lang "wala" o di kaya "jackstone" para mas athletic naman and dating. harhar.
anyway, pag nag-kikita kami ni aika, mawala na ang lahat wag lang ang chikahan moments. so un, isinangguni (wala akong kasyon, promise.) ko sa kanya ang aking mga inaalala. haha. somehow, i was enlightened naman.
i wouldn't fight for you. tell me i'm full of pride but still i won't. its your job, not mine. i know i can have what i want if i will do something. but then, i don't really want to have someone that became mine not because it is his will but because he knew that he doesn't have to do anything. i will not go down to that level anymore. i don't know what will happen next. i'm still hoping that things will go back to the way it was before. that is, if there was even a before. but then,i'm starting to realize that what i am hoping for will never become a reality. kahit hatakin pa xa ng chora(socsci 13, gender and society).maybe it's just not meant to be. i'm not afraid to lose you. coz you weren't even mine. and..i've been this way before(kanta?). mas malala pa nga ung dati. i can handle myself now. i know this is gasgas na. pero, i really really want to say this.

it's your loss, not mine.

alang pakyelaman, blog ku ini. wa, kapampangan ku! (pero ditak mu ing balu kung sabyan keng kapampangan.hehe.)

and, as for you. i deeply appreciate everything. the spongebob, the breakfast, and the song(daw). thank you. very much. i hope you'll still be there someday. someday... maybe.

looks like i will return to my old self after all huh.

i don't mind. i'm happy this way.