ngttka rin ako.biglan tagalog ung dulo.

its been a while...

i've made my decision. i don't know if it's bad or good. but the thing is, i'm the one who made it. all by myself. well, with some advices guiding me from people..haha.. after seventeen years of breathing, it's only now that i've made a decision this big that it took me months to think about it.

goodbye fog. hello smog.
goodbye 75 degrees inclined roads. hello overpass.
goodbye strawberries.hello isaw near the college of law.
goodbye session raod.hello sm north.
goodbye pond.hello where the hell i am gonna stay.
goodbye bio quatro. hello blockless living.
goodbye library.hello libraries.
goodbye comfort zone. hello danger.

goodbye my beloved baguio.hello diliman.
goodbye bio.hello chem.

i am again standing in ground zero.

i don't know anyone. i don't know anything.
will i be able to cope up with the people, with the system?
what will happen?
this uncertainty scares me. really really scares me.
the truth is, i don't want to begin all over again.
i don't want to leave the things that already are a part of me.

but then, letting this opportunity pass will be synonymous to binding myself.i'd be limiting my potentials and my growth. i'd be the same karen forever and ever and ever. stagnation.

so i will go. despite the fear.despite the anxiety.

when you dream, it won't just be realized in a minute. you'd have to undergo death first. in how many reaction papers have i written this truth? how come it is only now that i have fully grasped its meaning?

kahit anong mangyari, *TANGA TAYONG LAHAT. di lang ako. pati ikaw.pati sila.


*vandal sa isang unknown building inside UPD.


"sa isang concert, hindi m alam kung anong mangyayari. pwede kang mapahiya at mabote ng bote. kaya, practice your heart out. pwede rin nmn kasing palakpakan ka diba?"--ej

nung ngkasabay sabay ang mga survey at research eklabu nung 4th year, nkpagtatakang lgi kong kagroup si kuya aaron. lagi niyang sinsabi ang "bahala na si batman".napass nmn nmin lhat..

bhala na si batman.